chocolate and whine

Sunday, July 26, 2015

Sunday, July 19, 2015

Sunday, July 12, 2015

1. This porcelain apple sits on my desk.

2. I took it when it was no longer needed at work.

3. Something about it speaks to me and I love it.

4. But this picture is horrible. And super boring.

5. But I'm a little heartbroken right now so I'm letting this boring photo slide.

The end.

Sunday, July 5, 2015

27/52: 4th of July Selfie

Spent the fourth on my parent's boat. Good times were had despite the eyes in this photo that say otherwise and look ever so sad. They're not sad; just unsure where to look cuz selfies aren't really our thing and make us uncomfortable. And by "us," I mean me and my eyes and all the other body parts.

Sunday, June 28, 2015

26/52: Sunflower, I think

I'm going to tell you all about this photo... just as soon as I have the tools to do so. But stupid deadline and all that. So, to be continued...

Monday, June 22, 2015

Must Stop Eating

I started a blog back in 2006 called “Must Stop Eating” (before Chocolate & Whine and before Stephanie Harsh and before The Vamp Tramp and holy shit can't I ever just stick?!) and I chronicled really mundane things like what I ate and whether I pooped or not (serious) and I often ended sentences with “yay!” The truth is, back then I had legit reasons or ending my sentences with “yay!” because I was in the process of losing upwards of 50 freaking pounds. “Yay!” indeed.

I kept the weight off for a while and then I got divorced and my entire life changed. Including my eating habits. And I started to gain weight. But I kept telling myself I could lose it again any time I wanted. I knew how. I was a pro. An expert. A little weight didn’t scare me! And I continued to tell myself that until I had gained ALL THE WEIGHT BACK AND THEN SOME.

That was five years ago and I’ve been struggling ever since.

Several months ago, I started reading those old blog entries. I was so young back then, so naive and so optimistic. And while I can’t help but cringe a little and roll my eyes at some (most) of those old, silly posts, there’s something so inspiring about them, something that makes me feel like I really could do it again.

Even now, right now, just talking about them… I feel motivated.

They’re the reason I came back to “Must Stop Eating” and the reason I started blogging again. Because, let’s face facts, I really MUST STOP EATING. Getting back into a routine that once proved successful can’t hurt, right? That was my intention 6 months ago, but supposedly better late than never. (I’m not sure I agree with that statement; no one likes people who are late.)

I promise not to talk about poop this time. No, I take that back. I might talk about poop.

Poop. Yay!

Sunday, June 21, 2015

25/52: Almond M&Ms

It makes me nervous spending large amounts of money. And by "large," I mean anything over fifty bucks. (I'm totally serious.) So, shopping for a new laptop the last few months has been a little stressful. (It was much easier to spend the money when I was married and their were two incomes and a husband who took care of the finances and I could just pretend the money was limitless. That was fun.)

Anyway, I came home with the new Surface about a week ago. And let me just say this: the Surface Pen? On Photoshop? GAME. CHANGER. It has totally (at least for now) restored my interest in photography and Photoshop and I feel like a brand new girl! (A brand new almost-33-year-old girl who still has no idea what she's doing and now regrets eating all those M&Ms.)