My therapist once told me that I needed to make a list of goals. Then she called Twilight soft porn and I immediately quit seeing her. That psycho. Anyhow, I do happen to think she was right (about the goals, not Twilight). So, here it is. The list.
Write a "Love" post.
To counter my most recent "Hate" post. Because I think it's necessary to have balance. (In all things but my diet, apparently.) And because if I'm going to change my way of thinking before I blow my brains out then it probably couldn't hurt to start focusing on a few positives.
Due by: October 23, 2010
Go 30 DAYS without purchasing a single Starbucks coffee.
I know. This is a toughie. Not only because there's one RIGHT THERE in my place of employment and not only because I absolutely LOVE me a grande nonfat toffee nut latte, but also because I often use Starbucks as a means of getting out of the house. I'll grab my laptop and set up camp for a couple hours. Where will I go if not Starbucks? And, before you suggest a place, let's think this though. It would not make a whole lot of sense for me to replace one money-sucking habit with another.
Due by: January 1, 2011
Other than a snarky comment here and there about my completely atrocious eating habits, I rarely talk about food and weight and all the other unpleasant things that go along with weight loss and eating healthy. So, here are a few facts: I used to weigh over 200 pounds. It took my a long time, but I finally reached my goal of 135 in early 2008. Since then, I've gained back 15 pounds. Most of it in the last 7-8 months. Understandable? Perhaps. Horrifying? Absolutely. My habits are horrible. My motivation is sadly, frustratingly absent. Candy is the devil. This has to stop. I know that getting back to where I was (135, not 200+) will go a long way towards making me feel better about myself.
5 pounds due by: November 1, 2010
10 pounds due by: November 25, 2010
15 pounds due by: January 1, 2011
Enroll in a class.
Like, a real one. You know, one that you'd take at a school? I've been talking about this for some time. I came close once. Then there was so much back-and-forth bullshit that I eventually quit trying. Shame on me.
Due by: The first day of the Spring semester (whatever that is)
Bake something. Anything.
Other than the cake balls I've made, I haven't made anything more complicated than a sandwich in the last several months. Maybe that's why I'm depressed. Recently I went to Disneyland and while there I went into a little coffee shop on Main Street. They had display after display of all sorts of baked goods. Double chocolate muffins, giant sugar cookies, spiced apple and pumpkin cupcakes, cinnamon rolls, you name it. They all looked so beautiful and delicious. It just made me realize how much I miss baking... and how badly I want to pursue it professionally.
Due by: November 15, 2010
Have new tires put on my car.
I know. Totally lame. But I am The World's Most Amazing Procrastinator and I've needed new tires for "a while." I know where, I know how much, I know I need to do this. And yet I still haven't made any effort at all to schedule an appointment. No, this goal isn't lame. I AM.
Due by: October 23, 2010
Initiate a conversation with someone I've never met before.
Yes, I am putting this on my list of goals. Don't look at me like that. 1, I'm an introvert. 2, I don't like people. 3, I work a lot. 4, If I'm not working, I'm reading. And 5, I rarely go out and even more rarely do I go to places where striking up a conversation with a random stranger would be considered appropriate. I want to get out of my comfort zone and I want to meet new people. Now I just have to turn into somebody COMPLETELY UNLIKE MYSELF and I'll be just fine.
Due by: March 1, 2011 (You're damn right I'm giving myself that much time.)
Finish reading the bible.
No, that's not a joke. And I certainly don't mean to scare anyone off by mentioning the "R" word. (Religion. Geez.) But I am a religious and spiritual person and my relationship with God is by far the most important relationship I'll ever have and, to be completely honest, it brings me peace. And (aaaaaannnd) it provides answers to some of the questions I have a difficult time answering on my own. So there. I want to finish reading the bible. (Wait. Is it supposed to be The Bible? Capitalized like that? Wow, I'm really bad at this.)
Due by: October 16, 2011 (It'll totally take me that long, too.)
Okay, I'm done. Eight is plenty. That was exhausting. The rest is kinda scary.
So, you know I'm gonna ask... Any goals for yourself?