I'm heartbroken and devastated.
I'm scared and have no idea where to go from here.
The future seems dark and desolate and desperate without you in it.
I don't want to live without you.
I'm in love with you.
A decision that makes me want to curl up on the floor and weep can't possibly be the right one.
I miss you.
I miss hugging you.
I miss laughing with you.
I miss sharing this bed with you.
Can't you tell that this is so terribly wrong?!
Why wasn't I good enough? Why couldn't I make you happy?
What was so wrong with me?
Please, just put your arms around me and tell me everything will be okay.
Because, right now, it feels like my heart is being ripped from my chest and there's no chance I'll survive.
Please, don't let this happen.
I'm begging you.
Of course, I only said these things in my head. Saying them out loud wouldn't have made a damn bit of difference.