Thursday, December 3, 2009

Because boxes make me feel scattered and disorganized.

My co-workers are making me cranky today. They won't shut up. Their phone calls are taking much, much too long. The one who "axe" questions keeps turning the radio up too loud. I bought some Red Vines to make myself feel better. They’re stale and so hard to chew they need to come with a dentist appointment.

I just finished reading New Moon. FOR THE 452nd TIME. I couldn't help it. As soon as I saw the movie, the urge to read the book came on all hot and heavy. I tried to resist. Apparently, I didn't try hard enough. Thankfully, the urge to read the rest of the series is not as strong and I think if I start the Lisa Kleypas book I recently downloaded to my iPod, I'll be okay. (I have serious issues. I'd go see my therapist, but SOFT PORN, remember?)

Reading books on my iPod is my NEW FAVORITE THING OH MY GOD. When the Kindle was introduced, I wasn’t interested. I like BOOKS. Books you can hold and smell and look at and flip through. Then we were in Utah and I needed a book for the long drive home. Instead of driving around an unfamiliar city looking for a bookstore, I made the decision to download one to my iPod and give the eReader application a shot. I LOVED IT. The book and the experience. Now, my books come with me WHEREVER I GO. I can read anywhere. It's easier to hold, easier to flip pages. I'm seriously in love. I can't believe I ever had doubts. And, honestly? Not having to find a place to keep another book is AWESOME.

I am desperate to hang Christmas lights. With the move and the endless unpacking, it feels like the holidays are slipping away and, damn it, this is my favorite time of year and I don't want to wake up one day in January and wonder what the hell happened to Christmas.

Unpacking isn't the only reason I've been in a BLUNK these days. (That's my hip way of combining the words "blog" and "funk." Watch. It'll be the next cool word.) While in Utah, I discovered that my twin twelve-year-old nieces read this here blog. And, at the risk of offending and hurting the feelings of my ENTIRE FAMILY, I'm going to be completely honest with you. (Because, damn it, that's why I HAVE A BLOG.) I don’t like it. Children shouldn’t be reading this. Children who don’t understand some of the serious topics I choose to write about, but ONE DAY WILL, shouldn’t be reading this. I would even go so far as to say that I feel angry. I’m struggling to get past it. I’m struggling with the idea of saying fuck it and starting over somewhere new.

Also, I hate, hate, hate it when someone quotes something I wrote back to me. It’s painful. (I’d make a terrible writer.)

Last, but not least... I miss you people. I don't miss my old job, but I do miss the downtime. Time that I gratefully used to stay up-to-date with my favorite writers and photographers. I miss commenting regularly. Now I finally get a chance to open my reader just to find 150 new blog posts. It's a bit intimidating. Granted, most of 'em are from PW, but still... Anyway, just thought I'd throw that out there. I miss you.


Okay, I work next to this Clarion. Tonight I finally took a picture. Those lights have been out for weeks.

13 comments:

  1. Yes, take 45 minutes this weekend to locate and hang your stockings put out a bowl of glass ornaments or tinsel and tape up a couple of strands of lights around a doorway at least. The effect is truly calming. Mitigates the stress of living in a sea of cardboard. Oh, the pic of the hotel next door is hysterical. One more thing. It just started to snow. And I'm in Houston TX.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Blunk I like that!I'm in one of those too. Clarion Ho, is that like the Ho Jo?Our Big Lot's store had lights out for awhile. It read Big O. That found alot of attention.Hang your lights for me. I can't seem to find the time or persuasion to hang mine.

    ReplyDelete
  3. red vines are worth the dentist bills, for sure :)

    ReplyDelete
  4. Love the hotel sign....advertising their own I suppose? :)

    ReplyDelete
  5. Clarion Ho- is that kinda like the blare of the prostitute?Gotta love it.

    ReplyDelete
  6. I love your scattered post! You and your sister are totally cute. Decorate! Even if you still have boxes all over. Don't let Christmas slip away without decorating, it's just three weeks from now. Think of all the beautiful Christmas bokeh shots I'm hoping to see on your blog. heehee!

    ReplyDelete
  7. I have been in a bit of a blunk too! Not sure why. No lights up here yet. Maybe next week.Oh when we went to see New Moon, at the moment Jacob took off his shirt all the females in the theater gasped and then giggled (including me). It was so great!

    ReplyDelete
  8. I feel left out. All I see where the video is supposed to be is a black square.

    ReplyDelete
  9. I say don't do it. I made a new blog to get away from people who found me anyway. ::sigh:: but i've always missed the old blog and regretted it. Then learned to say what i have to say anyway.Your honesty cracks me up and I'd miss ya - if you was to axe me, that is ::laughing::mia

    ReplyDelete
  10. That video is pure genius! Clarion ho? Bwhaha...

    ReplyDelete
  11. If you can't tell by the date on this comment, I too am behind on my Reader. It gets very overwhelming indeed. Last time I got back from a vacation, I ended up just deleting a bunch of blogs from my reader instead of catching up. Oh well. Love the Clarion Ho!

    ReplyDelete