I've spent most of my day obsessing and I desperately need your help.
I've been invited to attend the bridal shower of a co-worker.
Said co-worker and I have become friends in the nine months we've worked together. We have, on few occasions, spent time outside of work. This usually occurs when we realize we're done at the same time and decide to go for drinks.
I really like this co-worker and I'm excited to attend her wedding.
I am not excited to attend the shower.
Hi, have you met me? I'm totally shy and anti-social. I loathe gathering with groups of strangers. This certainly won't be an event for the co-worker and I to socialize as she'll be busy BEING THE BRIDE.
I've RSVP'd and now (I realize this makes me a complete toad) I want to cancel. I want to make up an excuse for why I suddenly can't attend. I don't want to force myself to be miserable.
In other words, I don't wanna.
Am I allowed to cancel? Or would it be completely unforgivable?
I was called into work earlier this evening and I agreed to come in based on the fact that the co-worker would be working as well and I knew we'd have fun together. I love talking to her and just plain being around her.
When I arrived, I had already rationalized my plans to cancel. Now that we've spent the last five hours laughing, I feel equal parts guilt and JUST GET THE HELL OVER IT AND GO!
But then the realization sinks in that I will not know another single person there. Not a one.
Did I mention I suffer social anxiety?
I'm a mess.
Please tell me what to do.