Friday, July 2, 2010
This wasn't in the budget.
There were so many other things I wanted to tell you about. Unfortunately, trumping all of those is my little traffic accident while stuck in bumper-to-bumper on the 5 freeway this afternoon. I know I should count my blessings, things could have been so much worse, blah blah blah... Can't I have just a brief moment of "why me?" This totally sucks and I'm mad. Really good and mad. I mean, haven't I dealt with enough this year? Do I really deserve this on top of everything else? Is this what I get for feeling down today? Is this what I get for indulging in a little pity party, for feeling down on my current living situation? For contemplating the idea of renting a room somewhere? Don't I deserve a room with, you know, a real, live door? Oh, didn't I mention that? There is NO DOOR on my bedroom. Here's where I let it all out in the open, 'cause I'm (eventually) honest about everything. My room at my mother's has NO DOOR. I'm grateful to have a room! I am! And it's rent-free! Awesome! And hundreds of other exclamation points for good reasons! Like my health! And my family! And their health! And a three-day holiday weekend! It's all wonderful and awesome! Exclamation point! But, you know what? I could have done without my front bumper making friends with the little red Ford Focus in front of me. I would have been grateful for the use of my driver's side door, which is now stuck shut. I would have been happy to keepthe $1,000+ that it'll cost me after all is said and done. And, damn it, I don't think I'm a terrible person for wanting a room with a DOOR. The end.